Le Noir S'est Leve

April 2nd, 2006

some random thoughts

seeing beauty in darkness is as rewarding as appreciating the last flickering candle that lights the vast, fearful darkness of an endless cave.

music revitalizes my soul. it rehabilitates my mind from the insanity it creates, and cures my flesh from the wounds caused by the harmful void of reality. hearing and creating music brings me to an elysium in the midst of my chaotic world.

everything i am and everything i have leads to death. the last hour will come and will devour my whole being. i have no choice but to embrace it and deny my existence.

+memento mori+

Currently feeling: morose

Posted by lenoirsestleve at 10:07 AM as a stickied post | ???

April 9th, 2006

sick

lenoirsestleve

oh my...i really feel sick today...rashes started to appear all over my body this morning..i just noticed that i am actually feverish now..this is really really bad..ano to???

oh my..this is really getting worse..my limbs are really itchy..and they're bloody red...and im starting to feel nauseous now..

is this dengue???

hope not..

wow. can't believe i still miss those good ol' days when i would bang my head into grindcore and death metal..i thought the nostalgia would only last for a day..

Currently listening to: comatose - pure evil and blasphemy
Currently feeling: sick

Posted by lenoirsestleve at 05:37 PM | ???

April 7th, 2006

blah blah blah

lenoirsestleve

let's talk about demise...and blah blah..

we start waiting for the last hour since the moment we are born. everything i am and everything i have will lead to death. the last hour will come and will devour my whole being. i have no choice but to make the most out of the short moment of voyage that was given to me; embrace the bewitching hour whilst it comes and deny my whole existence.

death can be a hideous thing or a wonderful thing, depending on one’s existence. it can mean freedom to those who live morose lives, and it can be a demon to those who are too attached to their jovial mortal lives. our perception of death will differ according to our degree of understanding about death per se, to our environment, and to how life was presented to us since the time when we are thrown into this void of chaos.

death can be the greatest adventure a mortal can ever experience. It is something new to everyone, something unknown which makes its enigma more enticing to some, especially to those who see beauty within the abyss of darkness. the concept of immortality also stimulates my interest, as well as the different philosophical arguments on eternal life – whether there is such thing as life after death or it’s just death then nothingness in the end, not just by death and its process alone.

Currently listening to: umbra et imago - memento mori
Currently feeling: contemplative

Posted by lenoirsestleve at 08:31 PM | ???